So I thought I could try doing a podcast episode about politics and if people like it, I will do more. I really think I talk about some things people would find interesting to think about and discuss. In this first one, I essentially gave my opinion on f---ing everything for 2 and a half hours, which is why the title is me being astonished because I didn't think I'd go on that long lol. Please let me know what you guys think (and by no means do I expect you to listen for 2 hours, also I will post individual segments from the episode as their own clips later)
(Oh, and if this get's a 2nd episode, I will not be alone. I will discuss with guests)
SXN 80 Exclusive: I know I am generally looked at as weird and out of it on this site which is kinda fair, however recently I have really been trying to get s--- together and hobbies are a way to do that. This being a good way for me to talk about s--- I care about.
I am honestly not saying all of this so people will d-ck ride me, but so that (since the internet is more likely than IRL to have people who feel life is hopeless) I think this could let them have... even a little spark of hope:
Most people around me at school (was in 9th grade btw) felt I was either a a------, weird, or too caring and not-masculine for my own good, I weighed 250 pounds (combined with moderate acne), and the only real social interaction I had was skype calls.
While I still have a very steep climb to go to get to the point where I feel happy, in the matter of a couple of months I have lost 20-30 pounds, reconnected with a pretty close friend I had a fallout with, made an new friend who shares my interest in actual doing things socially (though he get's annoying sometimes with how social he is, it's better than me spending my day in my room doing nothing enjoyable or productive), and I am planning to go into this next school year and be a so much more open, and nice person. Communicating with people is admittedly hard for me, but I am making a conscious effort. It is hard, even right now I cringe thinking of some of the things I said or the way I acted to people, but the only thing I can do now is change and perhaps I will feel I have a better public reception.
I find the fact I am doing all of this s--- at 16 to be very interesting, it's almost like the equivalent of a 40 year old mid life crisis but instead it's happening at 16 lol. But this is something I decided I needed to do, even if I feel like my teenage years were a relatively bad period of my life, if I can conquer that as a teenager and go into the entirely young adult world more prepared, and this leads to my future life being f---ing awesome, I will have regretted nothing. And I really feel, regardless of your age, this is most likely possible for you too.
