Jan 22, 2016

Everything you did 5 years ago is perpetually embarrassing. I briefly consider lighting myself on fire like a Vietnamese monk before getting on with my day.

 

Jan 22, 2016

I get flashbacks of cringe moments when im about to go sleep or other times randomly. I usually shout an expletive if i'm by myself.

 

Jan 22, 2016

So lately I've been thinking about a time when I accidentally called a girl I had a crush on "sista" in the 3rd grade and she just kind of stood there and winced at me. A recurring thing I do when I remember an embarrassing moments is whisper "k--- yourself" softly underneath my breath. It's kind of a twitch/kneejerk reaction thing. I do it regardless of if I'm in public or if anyone is in the room with me, people have turned around and said stuff like "What did you say?" quite a few times but I usually say it softly enough to just pretend that I didn't say anything/they're hearing things. I say it pretty loudly when no one else is around though, like room level.

Is this normal? Does anyone else have anything like this when they remember something embarrassing they did?

 

Jan 26, 2016

I remembered one today and legit shivered at it.

 

Jan 22, 2016

I just..

 

Jan 22, 2016

If I remember something embarrassing I just wince in pain and think to myself "the f--- did I do that for?"

And then the overwhelming wave of guilt or regret washes me over and I'm left to rue in a pool of self pity.

Probably lasts for as little as a few minutes to as long as maybe an hour or two.

 

Jan 23, 2016

Cry