May 26, 2026

It was going well until this happened.

 

May 26, 2026

Awesome to hear man, glad you're doing well. Seemed like you were going through it for a minute a while back so its nice to see the pendulum swing in the other direction!

Yeah that's what i'm realizing, a bit hard to break out the cycle cause a lot of my justification for having any idea of self worth is through people pleasing cause of the way I grew up. I'm figuring it out little by little though. I think I've always been an introspective person as a result of my upbringing but still i think your early 20s is where you actually try to internalize and work through all your bs, lot of people use this time and earlier to party and s--- and while I used to regret not partaking as much as others I don't think i'd trade that for not being who I am now. Not as any bragging right cause the bar is in h--- but once you actually try to spend time with people in our age range you figure out that a lot of people are really vapid.

I do think I have probably the most confidence I've ever had in myself for a while now, I'm a chill a--- good person and anyone who's ever had problems with me is a f---ing psychopath so thats a good feeling lmaoo

 

May 26, 2026

Its Gay-i

 

May 26, 2026

I know this a.i. cuz ain’t no way gas is $2.95. Lol

 

May 25, 2026

I feel like everyone is feeling it. Companies are down sizing, gas is still ridiculous, electric bills are rising, we have a r-----ed pedo president in office who rage baits the public on a weekly basis, and hope for the future generations dwindles everyday. People can’t afford to go back to school, home loans are insane, and people are starting to use up thier savings just to provide for thier families. It feels like we are being squeezed to just the limit that we go to work, get our few vacation days, and do the same thing again everyday. A mass recession and depression has been going on for years the, nobody wanna say it. But even the well off are starting to feel it. The working class and upper middle class widened. Not even trying to be politically. It’s just truth. A majority of people’s income and savings are way less now than even 12 months ago. And people say money don’t buy happiness, but it can buy comfort and stability. And that’s a major thing declining in America today.

 

May 25, 2026

Hit and miss, I've been fluctuating a lot more between depression and feeling alright compared to last year so far. I think it's realizing that I've helped a lot of people through s--- while I stayed a bit stagnant throughout the past year, so while i'm glad they're in a better place and it feels good to be a part of that I feel like I haven't done as much myself.

Also dealing with the fact that due to some family stuff I had to pay a lot more bills which has made money more of a stress point than it should be, this week especially has been rough. That specific problem should be alleviating within the next few weeks tho which should help! I have some fun stuff for the 2nd half of the year but that aside idk how its gonna go for me, hopefully consistently better and a bit less mentally draining. Good to point out that overall this i'm still in a much better place than i've probably ever been on a macro level, this is far from one of my worst years. How about yourself?

 

Jun 4, 2026

 

May 31, 2026

The white Benzino

 

May 27, 2026

Being busy can be good depending on what you’re doing. I’ve learned it’s all about momentum. Once you do something to get that ball rolling, even if it’s small, it can really make a difference. If you just keep that momentum up a little bit day by day, you can really make great progress with whatever you’re doing.

Yeah I’m also a believer of being careful about what you put into the universe. It’s part of the reason why I don’t like wishing death upon people. Things like this have happened to me before but to a much lesser extent, like when I said I never drop my phone only to drop my phone not too long afterwards. I’ve heard broken fingers s--- and can take a while to heal depending on what exactly you broke in the finger. For the record I’ve never broken any body parts either. Hopefully my fingers don’t break now.

Can’t remember what part of the US it was but yeah I kept hearing it was snowing like crazy even when it wasn’t supposed to. I f---ing hate snow

 

May 26, 2026

I agree. People are vapid. But yeah sometimes I just don’t wanna talk. I don’t leave the house, but f--- it I wanna walk.

 

May 26, 2026

I was just like you bro. It’s time to choose yourself now. I promise you won’t regret it.

I’m doing great. Feels like I have this constant momentum that won’t stop speeding up.

You’re welcome!

 

May 25, 2026

Pretty s-----y man. Seeing my friends and family succeeding in life, while I sit here. Contemplating on the game. All these rappers s--- is all that I know. I turn into a hater. I put up a false bravado. But I’m not an egomaniac, that’s not my motto. Sitting here in the McDonald’s parking lot with writers block, one foot on the pedal and one on the throttle. I’m going f---ing crazy man

 

May 25, 2026

We are nearly halfway through the year. How has 2026 treated you so far? How do you think the second half of the year will go?

 

Jun 6, 2026

Too much stress is causing it. Stress is a killer I'm afraid.

 

Jun 6, 2026

Just my health bro got a st depression on my heart. Didn't know that it runs in the family smh.

 

Jun 4, 2026

^June just started